I painted my nails red.  It's interesting how this color can instantly make me think of sex and feel sexy.  For now it sometimes takes external factors to bring romance to mind....but, until I feel it internally at least there are things like red nail polish, high shoes, and making a hair appt.  Step-by-step I am getting there and doing whatever it takes!

Wedding Dress $50.00. Worn Once By Mistake

2012 marks the 12th year that I've lived on my own.  In 2000, I finally got the guts to separate from my husband, Dennis. This was the beginning of the end of an 11 year relationship (8 years married).   Of course, it wasn't truly the beginning of the end.  The end had begun many years before.  However, there was a few chain of events that finally made me realize, I did not belong in this relationship anymore. I had fallen in love with someone else.  I did something I had vowed I would never do.  I broke the agreement we made.  I cheated on my husband.  It was a secret.  I  had to leave.  Only a few very close girlfriends knew the truth.

My first night alone in my new apartment was bizarre.  I was numb.  I was curled up in a ball, laying on the living room floor. I was crying so hard, for so long, that I was making noises I did not recognize.  I was scared.  I was alone.  Yet, I was exhilarated.  I was FREE.  I could DO ANYTHING I WANTED. I answered to NO ONE.  THIS WAS EXCITING.  I had to figure this all out.  I had to figure my heart out.  WHO DID I BELONG WITH?  MAYBE I DIDN'T BELONG WITH ANYONE?  I made it through that night, and the next and the next. I don't regret one minute of my marriage.  I don't regret one minute of my single life. 

Memorial Day + now Vacation is OVER

Yesterday was Memorial Day. I fell asleep before posting!  I've been relaxing in beautiful Shell Beach hanging with Mary.  The sun has been warm and steady.  The wind, waves and evening sunsets have been beautiful. Tomorrow it's time to go back to work. :-(  At least, I did work on some of my creative ideas, made lists of "to-do's" and started my personal development plan.

BIKINI BOOT CAMP

Bikini Boot Camp....say no more!

---GIGI

Sunday on the patio. I cleaned it and am ready for new plants, new table and chairs and a BBQ. What man doesnt love to BBQ? I can't wait for this summer to see what lucky guy will be the first to flip my burger!

GIGI 

Sunday, Sunday......  I've got my hair up in a towel.  My brother is editing pix we took yesterday from his birthday celebration. I need to pack and get out of here to drive up to Shell Beach for a brainstormin' creative weekend with Mary..... On the way,  I'm going to shoot pix of Lake Cachuma.

What does this have to do with "Man-ifesting", you ask?

It has to do with nurturing my creative self, surrounding myself with natural beauty and exploration of the mind and heart.  All of that should help nurture my heart and continue opening it up to LOVE LOVE LOVE.

Off we go!

Gigi's New Adventure

Gigi is happy....Gigi is new....Gigi is ready for a different life!  This is the year of Gigi.  From this day forward I am ready to explore, open up, do things in different ways.  Bring it on - my heart is ready to open...no, change that - my heart is open, I see everything from this day forward with loving eyes, softer eyes, smiling eyes, and laughing eyes.   The past does not equal the future. My future is going to be fabulous because I will never think of myself ever again as anything but fabulous.  My guardian angel only saw me as beautiful, smart, perfect - that's how all mothers see their daughters. I love you mom...this day is for you and every day hereafter.  love, Gigi

So begins the first day of our MAN-ifesting blog.

Dare I say, we are not MAN-ifesting at this point, but DOG-ifesting.  Or, WOOF-ifesting. Or, LIB-ifesting.

I guess I could say it's only ONWARDS & UPWARDS from here.

- Lisa